I’m an asshole. The problem with that is that I’m an asshole to all the wrong people. People who’ve looked out for me, tried to help me. I promise you, it’s something I am actively working on, but it’s HARD!! Hard because I usually don’t see how I’m being an asshole until someone tells me.
I know I’m selfish, but I really don’t know any other way to be. I have to look out for me. Always. Me first!! Because, if I don’t, I don’t get what I want out of life…out of anything! I’ve been raised in environments where being selfish was beneficial. Rewarded, even!!
I don’t know why I’m on this tirade. I feel bad, but only a little. But, enough to wanna change it, at least a little. I honestly like not being SOO nice.